fragility…

sometimes i hold my frailness dear

as i think it’s something treasured

desired, that weakness.

that helplessness that ensures another’s superiority

in this way i make myself amiable

flawed conclusions:

i hurt myself and i hurt others

i am a mass of destruction

dylan thomas…

And death shall have no dominion.
Dead mean naked they shall be one
With the man in the wind and the west moon;
When their bones are picked clean and the clean bones gone,
They shall have stars at elbow and foot;
Though they go mad they shall be sane,
Though they sink through the sea they shall rise again;
Though lovers be lost love shall not;
And death shall have no dominion.

And death shall have no dominion.
Under the windings of the sea
They lying long shall not die windily;
Twisting on racks when sinews give way,
Strapped to a wheel, yet they shall not break;
Faith in their hands shall snap in two,
And the unicorn evils run them through;
Split all ends up they shan’t crack;
And death shall have no dominion.

And death shall have no dominion.
No more may gulls cry at their ears
Or waves break loud on the seashores;
Where blew a flower may a flower no more
Lift its head to the blows of the rain;
Through they be mad and dead as nails,
Heads of the characters hammer through daisies;
Break in the sun till the sun breaks down,
And death shall have no dominion.

sinner…

why do you sin?

why do you take your desires over the laws of god?

why do you plot and plan for your mischeivious deeds?

why do you lie and deceive?

why do you ignore what's right and justify what's wrong?

where did i go wrong?

why do you not learn and follow the best example?

why do you not care?

if something is hard for you, please share.

i will fight for you with my tounge and fists.

the cuts on my wrists:

ask you oh sinner why do you sin?

why don't you listen to that voice within?

you are on the wrong path, walking fast,

why don't you look back?

at people who love you, instead of people whom you love?

oh sinner, there is time to change your ways

yearn for your ample reward for obeying your lord.

oh sinner,  your punishment awaits you.

my heart skipped a beat…

The beauty of indirect recognition

Coming from a source once scorned

Hit my heart with Godly words

My name, beside a cup of ginger wine.

How easily I fall in love.

How easily I'm smitten.

No, it was not love, just a melting of my heart.

Feels warm inside my chest.

It's enough to soothe my anxiety and worry.

Ya Allah: bless him and have mercy on him

The one who called my heart by its proper name.

becoming me…

I am real.

I am genuine.

I do what is right.

I stay away from what is wrong.

For one reason or another: I do.

Purify my intentions.

Purify my soul.

Give my heart strength.

Make my voice clear and strong.

I will rise, I will triumph, I will win the game.